Sayu..

Today I received a sad news from a friend.. her mom suddenly passed away, and she is hundreds km away I don't know how many kilometers are we from Malaysia. They are flying back tonite.. that's is one bad thing about living abroad.. you'll have to be prepared for sudden news like this. I am still Alhamdulillah haven't received anything similar.
In my WA group with my gal friends, we starts talking about out mother.. and one point that touched me and reminded me of my blog is when a friend mentioned about her late mother's diary that she inherits. How sweet to have something to remember your mom by.. a written journey of her life.

I do not keep a diary of my life.. I tried once, but when I found out somebody's reading it.. I stopped. Where's the privacy in it? Then I started to blog, which I also have stopped doing frequently.. after finding out few friends or friend of a friend in Qatar are actually reading my stories.. yes.. I am that shy!  truth is, I never shared my blog link to anyone.. I just created it to express my feelings, and use it a my medium of collecting sweet memories.

But after that discussion with the WA gangs, I tot to myself, I should keep updating this blog, as a remembrance of our life, especially when we are abroad.. building up family of our own.. so when my kids are all big, they could have look back at this and have some ideas, how it was.. yes kids.. Mommy is writing this for you.. so I have left something for you to remember me by :)

I love my Mom.. although we don't connect as others do. 

The day that i felt like a moviestar

Some people in my hub's office asked if I could be their actress for a promo shot. At first, i tot all i have to do is, to stand in front of the camera, smile and maybe read a line or two; so without hesitation, i agreed. But today, after going through the 2 & half hours of shooting; with ME, being the focus of the camera, i would say that I was wrong! The director was very friendly and helpful.. a very essentials help in my acting (not that i'm aware of acting essentials before, hiks). And...i didn't think that a 40sec promo shoot would took so long, and involving sooo much details! The director literally check every corner of every shots, so they match each other, or it would mean another shoots of the same scene and framing..adeh, lotih den! mmmmm.. ini baru promo free, kalau filem juta-juta, dunno laaa what's there to do and all, hiks. Anyway, i am very grateful for the opportunity to contribute to the company; yeah.. it is my old company too afterall, so ape sangatlaaa buat free promo camtu ;)

So, if anybody is as curious as I am to see the outcome of the shooting, just wait for my 40sec fame, coming soon in Alj4z33r4 english! heee ;)

Coming back home..

Nope.. it's not Malaysia.. it's Doha yet again! .. we've always talk about going back to Doha, live a happy life and maybe even grow old there.. (like they gonna allow it?! haha). And.. err.. sorry folks to dissapoint you on your 'hope' for adik Myra! thee hee hee..

And I can't actually believe that it's happening so fast.. in a month time! (at least for Aizal that is). I didn't even go for fruit picking yet! huwaaaa!!!

But there's a tiny bit of a hiccups, going there would mean, i have to give up my so-called career and dedicate meself on house chores, etc2? I'm sure I'll go crazy sitting around the house, talking to my german toddler, but ain't it cute?! Isn't it any mother's dream? To ALWAYS be there for her little one? To always be the one who feed 'em, bathe 'em, soothe 'em.. and teach 'em many many wisdoms??! (haha). I could choose to work, obviously.. but after my last experience with the 'personal assistant', I quite hate it, and NOT and COULDN't even consider it again, EVER! Orang lain cakap senang.. there's your mother, or your Ibu.. they could help surely? of coz they would.. but i don't want to! it's their turn to rest now.. and there are nursery and stuff.. yup.. THAT, would be a better option, but not now.. now is MY time with her, now is MY time to give it all out..is it too much to ask? hee.. ape aku merepek da...

On the other hands, Should I stay or should I go to Malaysia until my beloved hubby settled-in with his RP? There are plenty of things that I wanna do while 'holiday-ing' in London.. and so far, I've strike 6 out of 10.. My greedy self said stay, so I can finished it all, but my other half said go to Malaysia, it'll be less stressful with all your family around (is it?).. hurm..